Let’s recap the past year in my life:
- I closed my business. Defeat.
- I tried to figure out what to do next. Hopelessness.
- I considered moving to a new city for a fresh start. Desperation.
- I decided to stay in the same city to prove that I could be successful there. Stress.
- I tried to figure out what to do next. Depression.
- I went back to my previous career for some temporary consulting jobs. Shame.
- I’m still trying to figure out what to do next. Confusion.
There seems to be a common theme in my life recently. I don’t know what to do, so I settle for “good enough”.
I didn’t know what to do after I left my previous career, so I started a business doing something I knew little about and didn’t care about (my rebound job) since I didn’t know what else to do.
I don’t like living in my current city, where I impulsively moved two years ago, since there are limited opportunities here and the majority of people living here are both financially and morally bankrupt (in my opinion), but I don’t know where else to go, so I stay (under the guise of steadfast determination).
I didn’t like my old career, and I finally left it three years ago, only to return to it due to no other options and no other ideas, rationalizing that doing something I knew I hated was the right thing to do if it was for financial reasons.
Everything in my life – my business, my home, my job – is just “good enough”. And everything in my life recently has been either a financial or emotional failure. These two things have to be related! If something is just “good enough”, I will have no passion for it, and therefore, I will fail at it. I need to be passionate about what I do in order to succeed!
This is my New Year’s Resolution: In the New Year, I will not settle! “Good enough” is not good enough anymore. I will wait for the right opportunities to come to me before I act. If I don’t love something, I won’t do it. I will be patient while I search for my true passion in life.
I hope my patience in the pursuit of perfection leads to a happier, more productive, more successful, more prosperous, more passionate New Year.
Here’s to turning “good enough” into “awesome” in 2015!